eTurns out I can write (blog) its just tiny on my phone. Now that I discovered how to turn off the wi-fi I have 3G access. SO now what do I want to write? Today has been interesting - the girls always said when I used that word it was my nice way of saying No or ugly dumb stupid whatever. but I use it now because I don't know how to describe my day, kind of frustrating and disappointing. I feel the house I wanted so much slipping through my fingers- its just more than we can afford to pay and it would not be in Gods perfect plan for me to try & make it happen - not even to mention poor stewardship! I know God has the perfect place for us I just am getting a little antsy about the when!
So here am back on the path seeking direction and trying to stay away from the Oh-EE-OH soldiers & the Winged Monkeys!! Those things scared me to death when was little!!
I love the book of Isaiah especially 40:31! Who needs Winged Monkeys? with God I have Eagles!!!!
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Finding my Yellow Brick Road
Wow! Is there a way I can hide or get rid of those earlier posts? From nearly 3 years ago? They're actually pretty funny to read now ~ I was very nearly incapacitated after my accident on August 15, 2009 ~ I was determined to finish moving & run the cottage & get all the girls school supplies~ I had to get them any clothing items they needed for school~in a nutshell I was determined to be Superwoman and never ever ever admit defeat yet whenI look back I believe that was the beginning of my undoing. Note the word "I" repeatedly used throughout this narrative. Perhaps I should have depended more on God and trusted Him for the answers!
Sitting on this side of the past 2 years and 7 months~ 5 surgeries later ~ I'm tired~ I'm smooth worn slick! After 14 years & 9 months I no longer work for the Baptist Childrens Home.
I'm kind of lost right now~ I'm searching for God's leadership and seeking His guidance to define and deliver me~ but this is a scary place to be in~ the boundaries are undefined. Where is my yellow brick road? Wouldn't it be great if there were a yellow brick road to guide us to the Emerald City and directly to God for answers? (Sidenote: I do think that God is a bazillion times more impressive and beautiful than the wizard was, I mean God's skekinah glory is so powerful that He had to put Moses in the cleft of the rock so he wouldn't be overwhelmed and killed by the power of His glory!!)
Meanwhile back to the yellow brick road ~ there is a path that leads to God ~ over and over the writer of the Psalms and other Biblical writers talk of the path to God. Psalm 23 "He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake." Psalm 25 "Show me your ways, LORD, teach me your paths." The path is there for us (me), even though it may not be all yellow brick, we (I) just have to seek it and follow it. We, no I, need to be so close to God seeking Him, walking with Him, letting His love wash over me, holding me in His arms of love, healing my brokenness, there are several songs I could just bust into singing right now, one that I used to sing that says
"For His blood was not just blood, of another spotless lamb
But His blood was precious blood for it washed the sins of man
And His blood it heals my body and it sets my spirit free
And I'm so glad this precious blood still flows from Calvary."
I want to document my journey because I know that God has great things in store, I know that He is not finished with my life yet, I just don't know what the next great adventure is. Over and over God keeps telling me to trust Him every step of the way, and I know if this is so important to God that it will be mind-blowing when I see and understand His plan for me!! I want to make sure that when I look back on this time I have reminders of what God has done for me. I have more stories to tell of this journey and how I got to this point, but I'll save them for another day. Soooohh ~ back to the yellow brick road ~ the old way is dead (ding dong the witch is dead) and I'm now a new creation created in Christ Jesus seeking the correct pathway to God. I'm sure I'll hit some rough spots (Lions & tigers & bears, oh my) in the road but I just need to keep my eyes on Jesus! I'm really not trying to throw in a bunch of cliches and cutesy phrases but it's really late and that's what keeps popping in my head so without further Adieu ~ So long farewell Auf Weidershen, Goodnight. . . . . .
Sitting on this side of the past 2 years and 7 months~ 5 surgeries later ~ I'm tired~ I'm smooth worn slick! After 14 years & 9 months I no longer work for the Baptist Childrens Home.
I'm kind of lost right now~ I'm searching for God's leadership and seeking His guidance to define and deliver me~ but this is a scary place to be in~ the boundaries are undefined. Where is my yellow brick road? Wouldn't it be great if there were a yellow brick road to guide us to the Emerald City and directly to God for answers? (Sidenote: I do think that God is a bazillion times more impressive and beautiful than the wizard was, I mean God's skekinah glory is so powerful that He had to put Moses in the cleft of the rock so he wouldn't be overwhelmed and killed by the power of His glory!!)
Meanwhile back to the yellow brick road ~ there is a path that leads to God ~ over and over the writer of the Psalms and other Biblical writers talk of the path to God. Psalm 23 "He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake." Psalm 25 "Show me your ways, LORD, teach me your paths." The path is there for us (me), even though it may not be all yellow brick, we (I) just have to seek it and follow it. We, no I, need to be so close to God seeking Him, walking with Him, letting His love wash over me, holding me in His arms of love, healing my brokenness, there are several songs I could just bust into singing right now, one that I used to sing that says
"For His blood was not just blood, of another spotless lamb
But His blood was precious blood for it washed the sins of man
And His blood it heals my body and it sets my spirit free
And I'm so glad this precious blood still flows from Calvary."
I want to document my journey because I know that God has great things in store, I know that He is not finished with my life yet, I just don't know what the next great adventure is. Over and over God keeps telling me to trust Him every step of the way, and I know if this is so important to God that it will be mind-blowing when I see and understand His plan for me!! I want to make sure that when I look back on this time I have reminders of what God has done for me. I have more stories to tell of this journey and how I got to this point, but I'll save them for another day. Soooohh ~ back to the yellow brick road ~ the old way is dead (ding dong the witch is dead) and I'm now a new creation created in Christ Jesus seeking the correct pathway to God. I'm sure I'll hit some rough spots (Lions & tigers & bears, oh my) in the road but I just need to keep my eyes on Jesus! I'm really not trying to throw in a bunch of cliches and cutesy phrases but it's really late and that's what keeps popping in my head so without further Adieu ~ So long farewell Auf Weidershen, Goodnight. . . . . .
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
I was reminded by some of my friends posts that I should be more thankful and less ungrateful for the many blessings and opportunites God has provided for me. For instance, much of the time I focus on the hardships and problems associated with raising teenage girls, but they are such a blessing! They can be truly a joy to work and live with ~ yes they are loud, yes they are boy crazy, yes they are silly I could go on and on.
I think it is important to list the specific things I am happy for each day! and maybe even throw in a few things i want to change.
Things I enjoyed today:
1. Gail
2. A caseworker who is willing to help out with the things I can't get done!
3. Being able to sit in my chair and run the house while I can't really do much else, but recuperate!
4. Having the girls come home and tell me the highs and lows of their days.
5. Finding cousins on facebook that I haven't talked to in years.
6. remembering to look for the little things to be happy about
7. Philippians chapter 4
8. Ann carrying my purse at WalMart & Lowes
9. Steph helping with the door
10. Jess helping with the seatbelt
11. talking to Matt
12. beautiful new home
Things I want to change tomorrow:
1. Look for more opportunities to be thankful
2. Laugh more
3. Praise and pray more
4. Give thanks in all things
5. Look for the opportunity to bless others
I think it is important to list the specific things I am happy for each day! and maybe even throw in a few things i want to change.
Things I enjoyed today:
1. Gail
2. A caseworker who is willing to help out with the things I can't get done!
3. Being able to sit in my chair and run the house while I can't really do much else, but recuperate!
4. Having the girls come home and tell me the highs and lows of their days.
5. Finding cousins on facebook that I haven't talked to in years.
6. remembering to look for the little things to be happy about
7. Philippians chapter 4
8. Ann carrying my purse at WalMart & Lowes
9. Steph helping with the door
10. Jess helping with the seatbelt
11. talking to Matt
12. beautiful new home
Things I want to change tomorrow:
1. Look for more opportunities to be thankful
2. Laugh more
3. Praise and pray more
4. Give thanks in all things
5. Look for the opportunity to bless others
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Fears/Failure
Once again I have come up lacking in blog land! It's been oh 3 months almost to the day since I have written anything. Seriously I have not just been slacking in blog world but also in pretty much every area of my life. I have just about given up on finishing school just haven't had the guts to tell anyone. My prayer time/quiet times are inconsistent and sporadic. Everything I should be doing is just flaky. The bad thing is I don't really know what to do about it. I am so afraid of failure that I have rendered myself helpless and hopeless. You think well if you are afraid of failure you would be over the top about getting things done - umm not so in my case. I just am so afraid of not getting it right or not doing something correctly that I don't do any of it. Anyway I was trying to determine if I wrote about it if perhaps I would be more accountable to finish things.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Seriously. . . .
Here I am back in blog world again. I read other people's blogs and think Wow I can do this. But I forget or get busy or ignore it or get depressed or just don't do it. Take your choice, any or all those things work.
You know when I was a kid I always wanted to keep a diary, I would read books about girls who kept these really cool diaries and had wonderful amazing adventures, but all my attempts at diaries were found extremely lacking. I would write for a couple of days and then skip one or two and write again, then skip some more, write again, skip a lot, write a little, yeah are you getting the picture. Needless to say my diary never measured up to those other folks. No one was beating down my door wanting to write a book about my adventures either.
Seriously though it is so easy to get distracted and drawn away from my goals and purposes. I think Mike was talking about that very thing in his sermon. How the enemy distracts and distorts and draws us away from the things we should be doing! I want to stay on track, I don't want to fall away from the ministry to which I've been called.
2 Corinthians 4:1 Therefore, since through God's mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart.
You know when I was a kid I always wanted to keep a diary, I would read books about girls who kept these really cool diaries and had wonderful amazing adventures, but all my attempts at diaries were found extremely lacking. I would write for a couple of days and then skip one or two and write again, then skip some more, write again, skip a lot, write a little, yeah are you getting the picture. Needless to say my diary never measured up to those other folks. No one was beating down my door wanting to write a book about my adventures either.
Seriously though it is so easy to get distracted and drawn away from my goals and purposes. I think Mike was talking about that very thing in his sermon. How the enemy distracts and distorts and draws us away from the things we should be doing! I want to stay on track, I don't want to fall away from the ministry to which I've been called.
2 Corinthians 4:1 Therefore, since through God's mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
I am really not very consistent with writing a blog. How does one accomplish that? I find myself forgetting to write anything. I read all these wonderful blogs of friends and aquaintances and think ooh I can do this. I have so much I want to say, but when it gets to the actual moment of truth I don't know what to say. Perhaps I will add more later. . . . . ?
Monday, March 23, 2009
I've often wondered what it would be like to write my own blog, not that anyone would ever be interested in reading it. ha So what exactly does one blog about? I guess anything that comes to mind when writing perhaps.
I love to read and I find reading to be an escape of sorts for me. I can lose myself into the story I am reading. It's quite fascinating actually. A sort of sanctuary that no one can take away from you.
I love to read and I find reading to be an escape of sorts for me. I can lose myself into the story I am reading. It's quite fascinating actually. A sort of sanctuary that no one can take away from you.
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