I was reminded by some of my friends posts that I should be more thankful and less ungrateful for the many blessings and opportunites God has provided for me. For instance, much of the time I focus on the hardships and problems associated with raising teenage girls, but they are such a blessing! They can be truly a joy to work and live with ~ yes they are loud, yes they are boy crazy, yes they are silly I could go on and on.
I think it is important to list the specific things I am happy for each day! and maybe even throw in a few things i want to change.
Things I enjoyed today:
1. Gail
2. A caseworker who is willing to help out with the things I can't get done!
3. Being able to sit in my chair and run the house while I can't really do much else, but recuperate!
4. Having the girls come home and tell me the highs and lows of their days.
5. Finding cousins on facebook that I haven't talked to in years.
6. remembering to look for the little things to be happy about
7. Philippians chapter 4
8. Ann carrying my purse at WalMart & Lowes
9. Steph helping with the door
10. Jess helping with the seatbelt
11. talking to Matt
12. beautiful new home

Things I want to change tomorrow:
1. Look for more opportunities to be thankful
2. Laugh more
3. Praise and pray more
4. Give thanks in all things
5. Look for the opportunity to bless others

Fears/Failure

Once again I have come up lacking in blog land! It's been oh 3 months almost to the day since I have written anything. Seriously I have not just been slacking in blog world but also in pretty much every area of my life. I have just about given up on finishing school just haven't had the guts to tell anyone. My prayer time/quiet times are inconsistent and sporadic. Everything I should be doing is just flaky. The bad thing is I don't really know what to do about it. I am so afraid of failure that I have rendered myself helpless and hopeless. You think well if you are afraid of failure you would be over the top about getting things done - umm not so in my case. I just am so afraid of not getting it right or not doing something correctly that I don't do any of it. Anyway I was trying to determine if I wrote about it if perhaps I would be more accountable to finish things.

Seriously. . . .

Here I am back in blog world again. I read other people's blogs and think Wow I can do this. But I forget or get busy or ignore it or get depressed or just don't do it. Take your choice, any or all those things work.
You know when I was a kid I always wanted to keep a diary, I would read books about girls who kept these really cool diaries and had wonderful amazing adventures, but all my attempts at diaries were found extremely lacking. I would write for a couple of days and then skip one or two and write again, then skip some more, write again, skip a lot, write a little, yeah are you getting the picture. Needless to say my diary never measured up to those other folks. No one was beating down my door wanting to write a book about my adventures either.
Seriously though it is so easy to get distracted and drawn away from my goals and purposes. I think Mike was talking about that very thing in his sermon. How the enemy distracts and distorts and draws us away from the things we should be doing! I want to stay on track, I don't want to fall away from the ministry to which I've been called.
2 Corinthians 4:1 Therefore, since through God's mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart.

I am really not very consistent with writing a blog. How does one accomplish that? I find myself forgetting to write anything. I read all these wonderful blogs of friends and aquaintances and think ooh I can do this. I have so much I want to say, but when it gets to the actual moment of truth I don't know what to say. Perhaps I will add more later. . . . . ?

I've often wondered what it would be like to write my own blog, not that anyone would ever be interested in reading it. ha So what exactly does one blog about? I guess anything that comes to mind when writing perhaps.
I love to read and I find reading to be an escape of sorts for me. I can lose myself into the story I am reading. It's quite fascinating actually. A sort of sanctuary that no one can take away from you.